“Heaven can’t contain the glory of the Son”

Thursday night, we planned our our set list for Valley View Mennonite Church’s Sonrise Service. Since then we have been practicing the songs, but the truth in these songs just cannot be practiced without an overwhelming feeling of God’s presence. I would like to share these songs, with parts of the lyrics, and my thoughts. 🙂

Above All

“Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all”

This has been one of my favorites for a long time. I think I posted it last year for Easter. But it still hits home every time. That He would be crucified and laid in a borrowed tomb because of what I have done and continue to do everyday to Him, He still treasures me above all. Oh, to love like Jesus.

You Are So Good to Me

“You are my strong melody
You are my dancing rhythm
You are my perfect rhyme
And I want to sing forever”

I love this song. It’s upbeat and catchy. And so true. He is beautiful, our sweet, sweet song! He is the Father in Heaven, He is the Spirit inside me, He is the Jesus Who loves me!

Grace Like Rain

“Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, they’re washed away”

Another favorite. “Hallelujah” is my favorite word ever. I like the way that the Amazing Grace’s verses are completely intact.

The Saving One

“No fear can hold me down
Nor darkness steal my joy
For blood has been poured out
The enemy destroyed
Death could not hold Him down
The cross was not enough
To steal away His throne
For He is God”

Truth, only truth. This song is acoustic, which is lovely, but I like the real version too. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nd8ujAKZWik&feature=related)

Hosanna

“I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We’re on our knees, we’re on our knees”

This is my favorite part of the song. Starfield is the band we base our version off of, but the other versions are great too. 🙂 I love the fact that the words shouted as our Savior entered Jerusalem on the colt of a donkey are used in this song.

Amazing Love (You Are My King)

“Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it’s true
It’s my joy to honor You
In all I do, to honor You”

We do the Newsboys version, but again, the other versions are awesome too. 🙂 This is such a simple song, but it’s just so true. There is no denying Jesus is King!

My Savior, My God

“That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior”

I love the hymn feeling of this song. It just feels so heartfelt and vulnerable. So beautiful.

Lead Me to the Cross

“Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost”

Everything is summed up in those two lines. Reminds me of Philippians 3:7.

But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ.

We use the Seventh Day Slumber version here. You know the drill. 🙂 This is also the only song that we do entirely acoustic. Absolutely gorgeous.

I encourage you to dwell on the words of truth found in these songs. Most importantly, dwell on the words of Jesus Christ. We always say that Jesus is the reason for the Christmas season, but He is the King of this season. He is risen!

Jesus Freak!

“What will people think
When they hear that I’m a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it’s true
[oh oh]
I don’t really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain’t no disguising the truth”

 

Typically people think of “they” as the world, unbelievers. But what if the “they” is other believers? Sometimes other believers will condemn you if you’re a Jesus freak, for going all-out and just surrendering your whole world for Christ. I started thinking about this as we were worshiping God yesterday morning at the end of Valley View Mennonite Church’s 30 Hour Famine (which I participated in). We sang the song “Hungry” and I began to wonder what would happen if we asked ourselves to give up more than food for more than 30 hours. Can you imagine…

• a day without clean drinking water?
• a week without any food?
• a month without a warm home or bed?
• a year without any form of healthcare in an illness-ridden society?
• a lifetime without any media (books, music, tv, magazines)?

Yet everyday, poverty-stricken communities and families in every nation live this way. While they struggle to find their next meal, we struggle to scrape together $15,000 for a new car. While they struggle to find clothing, we struggle to find the perfect size in the right brand name. What if everyday, we were asked to give up our comforts? I feel like a huge hypocrite right now, as I tap this out on the laptop I own, in a warm home, wearing clothes that come from my enormous wardrobe, as healthy as I’ll ever be, with a full stomach, employed at two jobs. But the point I am attempting to reach is the scorn that I may face when I give up my jobs, my income, my warm home, my wardrobe, my healthcare, even a meal or two when full-time ministry with StillWaiting calls me to join them on the road. I may be homeless and penniless, living on a bus with 4 men and 3 other women, desperately trying to make ends meet just to get to the next show. We pray that God’s grace will never lead us there, but we also prepare ourselves to be fully vulnerable to what trials God may lead us through.  And I also prepare myself that my Christian friends and acquaintances will forsake me for following the words of Jesus, because I am taking it one step too far. I’m just a little too passionate for the Gospel. I am a Jesus freak. Shouldn’t I be saving my money to buy a house? Shouldn’t I eat well? Shouldn’t I clothe myself a certain way? Shouldn’t I take care of my health by having insurance?

 

Christ does not say, “Follow me when you’re financially secure”, “follow me as long as you’re getting fed three square meals a day”, “follow me as long as you can comfortably”. He says, “Follow me. Now.” In Matthew 9:9, Matthew does not go home, pack his bags, say good bye to family and friends, fill his wallet, and then follow Jesus. He gets up from his workplace…and follows. And every time Christ gives instructions before asking a disciple to follow Him, it is to serve others by sacrificing their belongings.

 

But that’s a no-no. God is happy with you just doing your thing and doing “as much as you can” as long as you stay comfortable. He would never ask you to leave financial security to follow Him. That’s madness. You don’t give all of yourself and God won’t radically change your life and make you uncomfortable. That’s the way to do it.

 

You’re missing out.

 

Jesus freaks are just that: freaks. And others who say they know Jesus will shun you, admonish you, try to pull you back to your comfortable state of being. I say, “Get thee behind me, Satan!” for he is the one making lukewarm Christians, making us content with our comfortable lives, making us fear being Jesus freaks.

 

I want to live my life a freak. And if Christians despise that, then so be it. I’ll forsake my comfort to follow Him. I will leave what I have behind me to be His servant.

 

And what will they think?

Higher Ground 2010

This year on our Higher Ground leadership team we had Kayla Hughes, Katie Hughes, Matt Hughes, Emilie Buhl, Eli Buhl, Noah Dietz, Peep Dietz, Sarah Cass (intermittently), Kayla Rossey (intermittently), Andy Fitzpatrick (speaker), StillWaiting, and Furthermore. Just a little bit of background. We were far more on the ball this year since we’d been through it once and I’d been to a couple similar youth events over the past year.

We started half an hour late since we were waiting on the ReaLife Assembly youth group — and they were well worth the wait. 🙂 We had about 50 kids in attendance this year. We started with Emilie opening with a small explanation and some Scripture and the introduction of Furthermore. We had the blessing of booking them at their EP release party in February, about 7 months in advance and they graciously accepted. Their set got the kids pretty pumped for the rest of the evening. Immediately afterward, Andy (Fitz) presented his message. I have heard several good reports about it so that was pretty exciting. Then we had a break. By this time, we were ahead of schedule (praise God!) and at the end of the break, we announced door prizes which turned out pretty good. And then it was my turn to speak.

Confession time: I wrote my message on the Monday of the same week. Didn’t touch it for the rest of the week. Friday night/Saturday morning, I had a 12:10 AM panic about it which Garrett King talked me through and gave me a lot of pointers which proved to be highly useful.

I presented my message and it turned out decent. People say they liked it, but of course that’s what they’re going to say to your face. 😛 We sent the kids outside for games, which Katie, Peep and Eli organized. They played one game, then pizza arrived and they were quite ready to eat. They ate then we sent them outside for a second game while StillWaiting soundchecked. Right on schedule, the boys started up.  In the middle of it, the ReaLife Assembly group had to leave. We were sad to see them go. 😦 After they rocked their set, they moved right into some worship. This was my favorite part of the whole event. Don’t be surprised if 10 minutes from now you’re still reading about it. 😛

The energy in the building was mind blowing. You could feel God flowing through the individuals and touching hearts. Arms of Love turned out to be the amazing. They played it during the altar call. I happened to sob through said altar call. Christ keeps His promise over and over again of giving me His heart. It was a breaking, compassionate heart at the time. And then just as quickly as it started, it ended. On schedule, perfectly.

I could not ask for a better 5 hours of my life. Yes, I know you’ve heard that before. But it truly changed my life. These experiences are shaping me into what I should be.

To God be the glory! May He reign in us!

“So reign, please reign in us/Come purify our hearts, we need Your touch/Come cleanse us like a flood and send us out/So the world may know You reign, You reign in us” (Starfield; Reign In Us)

Oh. Wow.

38 hours is far too short a time to have so much fun. Yet I managed. 😀

I left home at 5 pm Tuesday evening. Departed from Spartansburg at 6-ish. Did not eat at Taco Bell in Meadville for fear of throwing it all up in the hippie van. But had a limeade instead. Worked on my certification tests. Saw fireflies around dusk blinking over the tall grass alongside the road. Pretty little things. Looked like God had dusted the landscape with glitter. Was very tired from all the fresh air being sucked through the van. (The A/C doesn’t work so we open all the windows that do open.) Arrived at the hotel in New Philadelphia, OH right around 10:30-11. Can’t really remember. Got in our rooms. Jess, Kate and Holly went swimming in the pool. Susan and I didn’t. I worked on my tests some more. The boys played guitar in their room. (I have amazing hearing abilities. I could hear it at the pool. :P) Headed upstairs to our room and got around. Went to bed. Fell asleep the first time. Had horrid nightmares about work. Woke up. Got paranoid about not hearing my phone alarm. Got out of bed and got my phone. I sleep better with it in my hand. 😛 Fell asleep the second time. Dreamed nicely until the alarm went off. 5 hours is not enough, interrupted or not interrupted. Got my shower and waited around for everyone to get ready. Threw my stuff in the van. Got breakfast. Ran to the van, so that they wouldn’t leave me behind. 😛 Took off for Alive. Went around and around in circles. Kept my mouth shut. Finally got on the right track. Took a few more detours. Discovered we should never trust phone GPSs. Made it to Alive nonetheless. Got in with little to no trouble. Felt bad for Bryan. Was mistaken for stage crew. Learned how to fold tarps. Corrected the mistake, praise the Lord. Waited for the boys to play. Stood in the front row and cheered them on. Sweated 60 gallons of sweat. 😛 Hung out and cheered Furthermore. on. Hung out some more while waiting for the hippie van to arrive. It arrived and I changed into a tank top. Walked all the way up to the main stage and vendor tents. Observed a strange being rolling in ice. (I swear, it was not my idea! :P) Watched set-up on the main stage. Walked back. Found food. Ate it. Mooched. 😛 Stuck around waiting for the storm to hit. Listened to House of Heroes during the wait. Storm hit. It got bad and we sat in the van and watched tents blow over. Then it settled down and we got out and helped keep water of the stage and canopies. Eavesdropped on some exciting conversations. Ate more food. Walked to the main stage again. Got my legs and feet covered in mud. 😀 Listened to a little bit of Seventh Day Slumber. Fell in love with the beginning of their altar call. Missed the rest of it, but had fun walking with Holly to her parents’ van and back. Ate again. 😀 Listened to Brandon Heath. He looks a little like Gerard Butler sometimes. But he also looks like a guy my dad used to work with. I liked how relaxed he was on stage. Royce observed that the drummer looks like Genie from Aladdin, and he did. Left for the hippie van. Stopped along the way to let the boys frog hunt in a puddle. Got to the van and embarked for home. Fell asleep for a little. Then stayed up the rest of the way. Stopped in Meadville again for food and drinks and bathrooms. They wouldn’t let us take the bathrooms with us. Continued on to Sparty. Got there about 1:30 am. Left for home-home at 1:40-ish. Got home about 2:15. Talked until 2:45. Went to bed at almost 3:30. Got up at 7:30. Thus ended the most incredible 38 hours of my life. 🙂

Politickles

Right off the bat, I usually don’t dabble in politics. Can’t stand them. Drives me absolutely crazy. But I did have a thought this morning on the subject.

We can’t legislate morality. Actually, we can. It’s just not going to make much sense until the people want them. It’s more wise to disciple the American people, then the legislation of morality will follow. If we do it before, it’s basically no different than what we have now except it’s in our favor. And as much as we would like it that way, it’s still not right.

That said, I don’t think it’s wrong to elect the right officials. I don’t think it’s wrong to selective in whom we choose to lead our country. But whoever is elected is not going to change our country. It’s already headed there, the people just want it there faster. It’s a reflection, not an image to follow. The people lead. And you can easily see where we’re going. Getting angry with our government, our laws, our political leaders isn’t doing much. It’s your neighbors, your friends, your co-workers that are making these decisions. What are you doing to change their minds? What should you be doing to their minds? Putting up twice as many political yard signs? Handing out flyers? Telling them the horrible offenses or outstanding accomplishments of the individual candidates? Explaining what you believe they don’t understand about taxes or what-have-you? Or showing them a little everyday brotherly love, telling them about your God and the correct order of civil laws. Once transformed by Christ, the morality will come, then the legislation.

Morality cannot be forced on any one individual. We as Christians should know about someone’s religion being forced on us. We are angry that the Muslims are here, we hate that they force their morals and religion on others. We hate that the atheists ask that their “religion of evolution” be discussed and even taught, forced, on our children in public schools. They all have human rights to believe what they wish just as much as we do. But the more Christians we have in the nation, the more morality will be legislated.

That was pretty much all the thought I have into politics. 🙂

Black & White

I wrote this last night at 11 PM. Just a little background. 😉

I just watched Speak. I read the book a couple months ago and the raw emotions of the story really haunted me. The unrefined feelings of pain and fear and apathy and simple joy…stories with these qualities capture my heart. Sure, the stories of hope and forgiveness and joy are dear to me, but what are they without doubt, agony, brokenness, and being lost. There cannot be a story of good with no evil to compare it to and make it good.

Maybe this all just relates to my own life and the life story we are all living. What is the love of Christ without the hatred of the world? What is His salvation without our perpetual and utter desperation of being lost? What is His forgiveness and redemption without the grudges and records of wrongs?

There must always be a comparison. A Satan exists because a God does. Hatred exists because love does. Pride exists because humility does. Emptiness exists because fullness does. There is no dark without light, no shadows without light. There is no black without white.

My heart longs to share the reality of these feelings as Laurie Halse Anderson has. These “ungodly” emotions exist because God offers the healing of them. They magnify and glorify His position in our lives.

That is why they are important. That is why they speak to me. They speak to be heard. They speak to be answered.

Can We Know God?

This question has been tumbling around in my head recently. Can we really know God?

I John 3:6 tells us,

No one who abides in Him sins; no one who sins has seen Him or knows Him.

That is blatant. If you sin, you don’t know God. If you knew God, you would be incapable of sin. That is how much knowing Him can transform you.

The apostle Paul states in I Corinthians 13:9,

For we know in part and we prophesy in part.

This would lead me to conclude, basically, that we cannot truly know God. We can know His attributes, but His whole Being is something finite man cannot grasp or comprehend. Perfection is something we have not seen since the Garden of Eden and since Christ’s time on earth.

Another thing that has been in the forefront of my mind is just how big and awesome God is. It dawned on me a couple weeks ago that He sees every single person ever to exist in all eternity. We think that however millions of people on this planet at this minute is a lot? He sees everyone from the beginning of time to the end of time, in the future. And He sees them all at once. Do you know how many millions upon millions upon millions of people that is? Yet, He knows every single one of them, desires a relationship with them, years to be their God. It gives new meaning to Romans 8:35-39:

Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? Just as it is written, For Your sake we are being put to death all day long; We were considered as sheep to be slaughtered. But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

If you read any portion of many of the Old Testament books, you will see many pictures of God’s love. How He always takes Israel back after she has been unfaithful to Him. When humans do this to each other, we wonder how stupid the other has to be to keep taking the unfaithful back. In some ways this is an unhealthy relationship, but in other ways, this is exactly how God treated/will treat Israel and how He treats us. Repeatedly we place something of absolutely no worth above Him. We chase cheap thrills and short-term emotions. We seek what we crave in things that can never live up to our expectations. The entire time, God is calling us back to Him, wooing us, breaking for us every time we turn our eyes to the filth of the world. And He is so persistent that eventually, we break. We fall to pieces and allow Him to take us back in His arms. We gaze into the face we couldn’t look upon before because of our guilt and we know that we are forgiven.

And so it continues, day after day, hour after hour. It never changes; God never grows weary of forgiving us and pursuing us.

We can never fully grasp or understand this concept. It baffles us and rightly so. We cannot know God. (Yes, I managed to tie all this together. ;)) We can only know what He does for us.

When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, The moon and the stars, which You have ordained; What is man that You take thought of him, And the son of man that You care for him? (Psalm 8:3-4)

I Miss Writing

So. I’ve not written for a while. And I miss it. A lot. So what’s happened over the past two months?

I held my second HSA get-together. Another grand time. I got to meet some new friends and visit some old. I did a lot better this year with my people skills, so I’m rather proud of myself. 😉

The very next weekend I spent in Columbus, Ohio at the Dare 2 Share Blaze conference with some awesome friends. It was an amazing learning experience. Starfield was there to lead worship and that was an absolute blast. I laughed, I cried. Garrett, Kate and I went to the youth leaders’ breakout session which was good. I was very happy to be able to do that. My favorite thing that I learned was relational vs. relentless evangelism. Some people — like myself — are relational. We’ll get to know someone and try to let out lives be the witness. Others are relentless. They’ll tell anyone and everyone about Christ without any form of relationship. The point was that we should have both under our belts. It encouraged me to work on my boldness and people skills, but still maintain my relational tendencies. I came away from that weekend exhausted but ready to do it again in a heartbeat.

Then a few weekends later I went to the Ohio Winter Rendezvous. Got to see and meet even more friends. I spent most of my time in a corner between the snack table and window. I got the best cell phone reception there. 😀 I pined for home and a person back home, but managed to have a little bit of fun. 😉 A big thank you again to Mark for not letting me sit and be lost the entire time. Thanks as well to Jason and Ben and Jamie for sitting and talking to me, taking my mind off the waits between conversations.

Some things I’ve learned about myself lately: I am capable of feeling extremely girly/feminine. I can miss people so much I cry at night. I can smell things that I associate with people in my dreams. I have conflicting personality traits. I am becoming way more comfortable with public speaking.

Hopefully, I’ll have a bigger blog post of more substance up soon. Hope you all are doing well. 🙂

My Glass Heart Fell 1,000 Stories

That about describes the feeling I felt just before midnight on Thursday, December 31, 2009. It all started two weeks before with an invite from Still Waiting to a youth lock-in in Sinclairville, NY. Since I am interested in working with the youth (and I enjoy Still Waiting’s music), I’d said I’d talk to my parents and get back to them. My brother, Matt, and I ended up going and we left about 4:30 PM, after I took a short nap. We made it there around 5:30 PM in one piece, thankfully, and we helped the band unload their trailer and van and get set up. Despite my fretting about breaking something, everything was fine. From about 6-8, the younger kids were there on the bounce-abouts. And despite their screaming and constant tripping and falling, they (and Susan and I) survived. About 8, the older kids started showing up. It was about that time that the band ran a sound check. (And I discovered the best place in the room to sit. 😀 I could see and hear and feel everything. Was awesome.) Close to 9, we headed for a private room for prayer and to speak to the youth pastor, Nathan Bailey. Huge kudos to him. He was so inspiring and has an amazing heart for the Lord. He’s the picture of a person doing what he can in his situation. And, if I may say so, he’s doing an incredible job. He told his story of how he got involved. Then he outlined what he would be doing that evening/night  for the kids. I sat there and choked back the tears. Then he lead prayer.

Around 9:45, Still Waiting started their concert. Like always, they were awesome. 😀 It has been such a blessing to me to get to know them better. I discovered (like I think I do every time) that I can waltz to rock music. No, I didn’t demonstrate. 😛 My absolutely favorite song of theirs is Remember. I cried the first time I heard it and immediately went to the Lord in prayer. Since then, it has become my prayer song. So I spent the entire duration of the song in prayer. Thanks, guys, for an awesome song. 🙂

Then Mr. Bailey spoke to the kids. I missed part of the beginning because we and the band hadn’t signed the registration and we needed to, so… But anyway, what I did hear of it was fabulous. Like I said, huge kudos to that man. He spoke on the lies the world tells us and the truth that God offers. This is something that has greatly impacted my life in the past year, so it really hit home. Again, I got choked up. Close to midnight, I watched a several teenagers tried to grasp the reality of God’s truth. That’s when my glass heart fell 1,000 stories. It shattered. It broke. How often I haven’t said anything and should have. I could have been the leader and I wasn’t. These kids need a leader. Nathan Bailey gave them one. The picture of Christ-like love is overwhelming.

After the kids came back from their gender-segregated discussions about their decisions, the bounce-abouts came back out and Still Waiting played some great worship music. Thanks to Holly and Kate for getting up there and lending their lovely voices. 🙂 When they finished up, we hung out some while the kids played games. Then they started to pack up and Matt and I decided to get out of there before we got put to work. 😉 Actually, it was close to 2:30 AM and we were hoping to leave a little earlier than that. I wish I could’ve stayed longer, but as it was, I was exhausted. So we left for home.

I tried very hard not to drift off on the way home, but despite the adrenaline that had charged me all night and the Skillet CD, I still did. We were almost home when we got caught in the slush. We discovered that not only slush covered the road, but so did ice. After fishtailing quite a bit, we went over a bank and into a ravine. The incredible part of it is that we came within a foot or so of a tree. It could have been so ugly. It’s such a terrifying feeling knowing that there could have been fatalities if God hadn’t stepped between our car and the tree. But there wasn’t. Praise the Lord. He truly saves lives. So we got home an hour late, but in one piece. I promptly fell asleep at 5 AM. Slept until 11. And boy, am I thankful that I turned the sound down on my cell phone. (And I’m sure the person who texted me at 10 AM is too. :P)

Anyway, that’s the story of my New Year’s Eve and Day. My glass heart fell 1,000 stories and God saved our lives.

“Honestly, Edward.”

I recently took on a major project. It turned out to be not-so-major. I decided to read Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. How could I possibly criticize a book I had never read? It’s very much like not liking a person you’ve never met. (Yes, you guessed, books are like people to me. ;))

In most of the reviews I have read there are 3 major topics that people attack: Unhealthy romantic relationships, bloodsucking vampires, and a terrible writing style.

Anyway, first of all, here are a few of my more random thoughts on Twilight:

Bella was just as pale as Edward. In fact, most people in Forks were pale. Excepting Jacob Black et al. 😛 Chapters 13-14 (ish) were almost purely (no pun intended) emotional pornography. It was immensely frustrating to read a picture of sexual tension without consummation. It’s just pointless. Especially when there are so many ellipses and dropped-off suggestions. I don’t mean this in a dirty way, just that once the ball starts rolling, it’s not meant to stop like that and it makes me mad for reasons I will outline later. 😉 The fact that Edward’s breath was so irresistible is disturbing to say the least. I think I liked it best when the vampires’ perfection was described as “outrageous”. At the beginning, a feeling like electricity coursed through Bella’s body when she touched Edward. Closer to the end, nothing happened. Novelty must’ve worn off. 😛

Now, back to the sexual tension (or the tensions between the two, period). Twilight is written in a fashion (and I realize it’s fictional, but still…) that makes it sound like you can have foreplay, then stop. Easy as that. It’s written off as “Edward is a vampire with ultimate strength and he doesn’t want to hurt her”. To which I say, “Umm, Edward, with your ultimate strength, you can please resist Bella, act totally normal, and/or move away.” Anyway, hopefully this doesn’t, but it may lead teenagers to believe they can do the same. It is appealing. Who doesn’t want to be loved — especially when your hormones are raging and he’s really uber-cute. And they can just stop, just like that, right? Like I said, though, once the ball starts rolling it’s not meant to stop. More often than not, one won’t be able to stop after foreplay. Best not to tempt fate there. Mostly, it just sets up an unrealistic view of a pre-marital romantic relationship. It’s not all bad. There’s a quote that especially stuck out at me as very true and something girls need to hear more often.

“I’ll be the first to admit that I have no experience with relationships,” I said. “But it just seems logical . . . a man and woman have to be somewhat equal . . . as in, one of can’t always be swooping in and saving the other one. They have to save each other equally.”

This is extremely true. No one wants to be the one always being saved. Both genders want to save. They serve different roles here, I believe, but the woman is just as much built to save as man.

As far as writing style goes, I didn’t see a whole lot there. Of course I saw things she could’ve done to make the book more effective, but that doesn’t make her a bad author. It makes her a learning, growing, real-life author. Same with the vampire theme. I don’t take a whole lot of issue with that. Vampires are fictional creatures. Anybody can do anything they want with them. Yes, they are inherently evil in nearly all of literature. But so is man.

As a Christian, I saw plot holes. What if a Christian was bitten by a vampire, not by choice? Would they be sent to hell? Or do vampires not have souls. Edward seems to believe he does, so basing it off of that, it’s a pretty hopeless lifestyle and completely destroys the lifechanging work of Christ. I would be inclined to say that, if it were my book, when the human died the first time to become a vampire, that’s when the soul went to its place, whether it be Heaven or Hell.

In conclusion, I saw flaws. I see the way it can affect our culture. (Which, really, is not much different than the way girls idolized the Jonas Brothers or Zac Efron or anybody else. Or, for that matter, the way Christian girls idolize Christian singers/bands, their role, or their fathers.) However, it opens the door to more darkness. What if, not all vampires are evil. What if, not all evil is evil. This leads down a dangerous path. One that needs to be lead with the light of His Word, dispelling all lies and darkness, and uncovering the truth lying in the shadows.

Reading Twilight does not predispose you to become a groupie, a maniac, a vampire, a werewolf, a bloodsucker or any other creature of your imagination. 😛 Neither will reading Lord of the Rings predispose you to becoming hobbits, orcs, elves, wizards, etc. Or reading Love Comes Softly to becoming the most amazing bride on the face of the planet and having the most amazing, patient, sensitive husband. However, you may try to become any one of these things because you are giving up on the hope of Christ. The only way to be dissatisfied with yourself is to reject who God made you. Rejecting who God made you rejects God and His changing grace.

The End. 😀

(P.S. I stole the title from page 84. It about summed up the book for me. :D)